You made it through the phlegethon of modern internet to the Goblin Cave and now you're here to learn about the dank Netizen behind the code. My name is BitterGoblin™, I am a Non-Binary transmasc goblin-like creature traversing this digital space in an attempt to make any sort of connection with another sentient being, no matter how trivial, shallow or brief. My pronouns are He/Him or They/Them!
As someone who has had a lifelong struggle with making connections, I've always found refuge on the web, though of course like others who found themselves in this Web 1.0 revival community, I too grew disconnected and jaded by the modern internet and all its sterile anxiety-inducing centralization. As a transhumanist, I feel there is more to our species than our tangible forms, and the web allows us to explore the inner workings of the creative and nebulous mind in a way that cannot be replicated in real tangible life or sterile social media.
What else can this goblin say about himself? As an adult on the autistic spectrum, I've always felt like a strange entity with objective/neutral feelings/views that never seem to fit the perspectives or narratives of neurotypical beings. Aswell as having ASD I also struggle with dyspraxia, dyscalculia, acute chronic anxiety disorder, auditory processing disorder and executive dysfunction - that coupled with living through a very abusive childhood meant I was also burdened with lifelong C-PTSD. Because of all these issues I've always found it easier to connect with other entities in a digital space, through the medium of text and artwork. Real life interactions are scary, confusing, and incredibly draining. It’s easier for me to connect with fictional beings or express myself through my own characters so therefore I consider myself to be of the 'otherkin' ilk/flavor of consciousness. Dissociation is my copium.
My first ever website was a Planet Kate fan shrine on Geocities back in 2001 which eventually turned into an E-Group, from there I made a bunch of shrine sites and eventually my own site showcasing my art and obsession/hyper-fixations with Beetlejuice, Sonic the hedgehog, Pumpkinhead, Killer Klowns, Real Monsters, Nightbreed and mushrooms/fungus. Eventually the landscape of the internet changed, and I found myself feeling very isolated and alone for a lot of years... I never felt right participating in modern social media, so I've never made any accounts on any of them.
Escapism is one of my favorite things, so I spend almost all my free time watching comfort fiction ('80s horror movies/'90s cartoons), playing video games, reading comics or drawing. I also dedicate a large portion of my life to my many non-human companions (which I will eventually write all about in the Critters section of the Goblin Cave - there will be many photos and bios for all my babies).
I am also a collector and will eventually be showcasing many of my collections in the Goblin Treasure section - this includes my huge collection of rare Boglins, my Real Monsters collection, My Gremlins collection, my taxidermy (dry and wet specimens), my collection of weird and creepy clown things, all my little toilets and much more '80s and '90s artefacts and ephemera.
My aim with this site is the same as it was all the way back in the late '90s when I wanted to make a website; to be known and perceived in a comfortable and authentic way and to hopefully connect with another living, conscious entity through the vast ocean of digital space - even for a moment. As one of my big inspirations MelonKing said: 'HTML has no time, it lasts forever. In 2000 years somewhere on some crystal HardDrive, there will be a copy of this site and some bored archeologist will explore it again.'
I find the idea of a pixel eternity beautiful... We are all pixels in the eyes of eternity.
